Eldritch Mlems

Bear (brother to Zee who y'all have seen recently going through chemo) is the biggest of my three voids at 15 lbs, though he is not my biggest cat. That honor goes to Caedus who is 18 lbs of muscle with a flappy primordial pouch. Bear has a larger frame though, and he is very long and his paws are HUGE! He's gotta have some Maine Coon in there somewhere. Was not appreciative of me trying to get feet pics. XD

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Okay, so It's my first post. I don't know if this count as NSFW but just in case I'll put a spoiler.

I feel foolish.

real situation that has happened

A video I made in 2012. Text just say we found these three male kittens and we were taking care of them but they still missed nursing until they found where they could do it... and they took a long time to give up the pacifier... thought people here might appreciate it

another video here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEGya_1lPNk

cross-posted from: https://discuss.tchncs.de/post/53266613

The Austrian Constitutional Court has strengthened the rights of nonbinary people—and at the same time given politicians a rebuke. Nonbinary individuals have, according to this ruling, the right to an adequate designation of their gender in the civil status register and to the complete deletion of the gender entry, the LGBTI organization Rechtskomitee Lambda reported over the weekend.

Back when I was a teen I've had a rather weak immune system for quite a while. Once or twice a year I'd have a pretty rough cold and went to the doctor. One of the symptoms I described was a strange feeling inside my throat, like there'd be some foreign object stuck, that doesn't belong. My cold got treated, I got better, but that object, it never went away.

A while later I went to the hospital due to acid reflux issues. It was a rough time, I woke up and felt sick almost everyday. Again I explained that there's this weird feeling in my throat, like there's a knot or something, but the doctors couldn't find anything out of the ordinary and dropped it.

Fast forward another ~15 years. I'm in therapy, mostly group-settings, and there's a therapist whom I've developed a very strong feeling of trust towards. Very unusual. At some point I've mentioned that weird knot in my throat and she tried to help me find out what it might be. Maybe it's a metaphor? A knot that's keeping my feelings away from my conscience? Or even a psychosomatic manifestation of that?

Nope to all of that. IT WAS MY FUCKING WAY TO BIG ADAM'S APPLE ALL ALONG! A constant source of gender dysphoria, "stuck in my throat", since my body told my larynx to grow during puberty.

It's so surreal, there's sooo much stuff that just suddenly is so easy to explain, struggles that I've thought about for years and never got really satisfying explanations for.

Did you have an interesting "It-was-gender-dysphoria-all-along" experience?

PS: Is there a nice term to address everyone in this beautiful space? I'm a little hesitant to use something like "Hey girls!", because I wouldn't want to exclude anyone who doesn't feel that close to the feminine side.

PSS: Is something wrong with this post? Please let me know.

Taken on 21 December 2025.

Hello!

I am a fairly new GM, and have only ran a few sessions of CY_BORG. I’ve played in many home TTRPG games (mostly DnD 5e) and have familiarized myself (through reading rather than experience sadly) with some fundamental RPG design and GM advice. My issue is, at the time I went to the game store to pick up RPG books, I wasn’t knowledgeable on Shadowrun and the editions/universe other than the fact I wanted to run it some day.

I have now realized, after buying the book and past the possibility of return, that I have bought the reprint of Shadowrun 2050 (1e) which appears to be the most complicated and problematic of the games in terms of system. That being said, I’d still like to run this some day and I’m mostly fine with a bit of complexity and crunch in an RPG. I was wondering, though, if there was a way that I could sort of build up to running something like Shadowrun?

Running not only a very rules heavy system but also a world with something complicated like The Matrix in it is pretty daunting compared to most RPG systems I’ve been interested in, so I’m a bit lost on resources to help guide me. It also doesn’t help that even among old school Shadowrun fans 1e seems to be the least played edition.

Thanks in advance!

I'm in my early 30s, been on HRT for a few months now (boobs growing yay), and I work with another trans woman, late 20s fully transitioned years ago. We work together and have hung out outside work several times, and I can't escape the fact that I'm getting feelings for her. This has been building for me for the past couple years, but we've worked together for at least 3. The situation is complicated because we work together and I don't want to do anything to compromise our working relationship/friendship, which has been really good. She's also married (her wife is a trans woman), poly, and ace. I love being around her and talking to her. I want to get to know her better and be physically affectionate with one another. Sex is pretty much off the table and not something I seem to want from her anyway. Mostly I just want to hold her and tell her how much she means to me. There's a part of me that really wants to tell her how I feel about her, but there's a much larger part that doesn't. I'm terrified of learning that my feelings are unwelcome, that just expressing my feelings will end our relationship. So far I haven't said anything, or even hinted anything, but it hurts so much to want to be closer and to hold myself back from taking a chance. I know that this is probably the worst time in my life to try, having only started transitioning a few months ago and only recently being finally done with a (messy) previous relationship. I just don't know if I can carry on with things the way they are. Obviously the answer is to enjoy being friends with this woman I care so much about. Maybe something will change in the future. Maybe nothing will. Either would be better than losing her now. But knowing that doesn't really change how I feel...

Idk what I'm expecting to get out of posting this. I guess I just wanted someone to listen. I don't really have anyone in my life right now who I think would understand. Thanks for reading. Happy to hear any thoughts y'all would like to share.