Eldritch Mlems

I think this is one of the first things I posted here.

Link’s now been an indoor cat for 7 years

from a private facebook group, 'cats with jobs'. whiskers

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Over the course of a year [for their book-length nonfiction project American Teenager], Lang embedded themself in the lives of eight trans kids and their families for two weeks at a time, trekking from California to West Virginia and nearly everywhere in between, condensing each visit into a chapter. The result is an incredibly intimate, varied look into the lives of American trans youth, from their worries about not being able to get top surgery before prom to the joys of finding home in a queer summer camp to the bittersweet feeling of leaving one’s home state to pursue futures that would otherwise be impossible.

swiped from fb, just like the picture

So I'm wondering if I might have klinefelter's (XXY chromosomes) or if I'm just very receptive to estrogen because the effects of HRT happened to me way faster than I've heard other people say it happened to them.

I've seen charts like these and I am a bit dubious of them because my timeline doesn't match up at all.

I don't know if my experience is actually normal or not, but when I started estrogen about a little over a year ago, it only took a few days for me to notice my skin being softer, and then literally the next day I woke up with breast buds and about 2 to 3 weeks later I had noticeable breasts that were big enough that it was difficult for me to boymode at work. I'm pretty sure I got to Tanner stage 3 in like half the time that's expected.

From what I've heard from others is that they didn't get breast buds until at least 3 months in and that made me question why mine happened so quickly.

I've also always been pathetically weak and it's also always been difficult for me to gain muscle. Which makes me think I had low testosterone even before I started spiro. I remember when I had my 3 month follow up, my t was at 89 ng/dL and I remember my doctor commenting that that was lower than he expected, although I have zero idea if that is actually lower than normal for 3 months on 100mg spiro.

I'm curious if any of you also experienced a similar timeline to me, or if your timeline fits the charts that I've seen. I know my timeline is quite fast and that it might be hard to believe (idk if my experience is normal or not), but I swear it is my genuine experience with HRT.

The billionaire’s donations failed in 2022 and 2023, making him one of the early contributors to anti-trans causes. Now, his PAC is partnering with an offshoot of the anti-trans Turning Point USA.

It was free, too. Neighbor was getting rid of it and let me have it.

You can seem 1 foot shorter or taller and can appear heavier or lighter. You must adopt a form that has the same basic arrangement of limbs as you have. Otherwise, the extent of the illusion is up to you.

im sad and have noone to talk to about it... except for wifey, and two friends.. but this is about one of the two friends, and they are friends with each other too... and telling wifey about it always leads to me feeling worse because she'll say clever things like "just talk to him about it" ...

i dont want to talk to him about it, that would mean i would have to acknowledge the problem and address it directly.

what a silly way to deal with emotional turmoil, am i right?

no i know im not right... i wouldnt be posting this crap if i knew i was right. i know im wrong and i should talk to him about it but i just cant ;_;

yeah... i know you must be thinking i need therapy and you would be absolutely right, except i hate going to the doctor and them being a special type of doctor for the mind and such doesnt make my detestation for docs any better.

sorry this really isnt about me being transfem. i AM transfem, but that doesnt have anything to do with the rest of it.. except i cut off most people i knew even before i transitioned... just because they would no longer be part of my daily life. which sucks but i guess i did this to myself so serves me right.

anyway, im sad, tired, nostalgic and have no point. thanks for reading ._.