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Finally something makes sense in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone

[–] emotional_soup_88@programming.dev 2 points 5 days ago

Thank you for the beautiful, comforting words! 😊

Finally something makes sense in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone

[–] emotional_soup_88@programming.dev 3 points 5 days ago (1 children)

Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your insights and experiences! :D In my country, while on the surface both authorities and healthcare try to sound gender affirmative and supportive, the process is extremely long.

My primary physician has to deem it necessary for my well-being that I undergo an evaluation on whether I have gender dysphoria or not.
If they deem it so, they will send me to a special clinic that evaluates me. The waiting period to even begin evaluation can be as long as up to five years. This is but one of the reasons why a close friend of mine moved permanently to the States. They are so brave and I'm so proud of them. 😭❤️
If the clinic after a one year evaluation concludes that I indeed have gender dysphoria, then I can ask for HRT.

I am not arguing against you in any way. I am endlessly grateful for your advice, and I do take it to heart. <3 Just wanted to share info on what kind of society I live in. And I also don't in any way mean to diminish how "good" I have it in comparison to places where you risk alienation, harassment or even murder if you even mention the idea of trans and/or non-binary.

Gosh... I need to stop making excuses, but that's an ongoing process too. 😅

Finally something makes sense in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone

[–] emotional_soup_88@programming.dev 4 points 5 days ago

My feelings exactly. My rollercoaster ride isn't over yet. I'm still processing. I'm speechless and exhausted and relieved. What is going on. Have a peaceful day <3

Finally something makes sense in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone

[–] emotional_soup_88@programming.dev 6 points 5 days ago (3 children)

Thank you so much for this comment, the bible and your words of encouragement! I really needed it today <3

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[–] emotional_soup_88@programming.dev 8 points 6 days ago

<3

At this moment, I'm just in shock. Trying to land. The idea? the realization? that I'm not wrong, weak, stupid, worthless or whatever all the years of toxic masculinity and cisnormativity have made me believe about myself is NOT TRUE is mindboggling.

Mayby I'll be revisiting the video too.

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My whole life I have hated, been disgusted by and been tormented by the fact that I am not enough of a man. I am a 37 years young cisman - or so I thought - and watching this video gave me more in one hour than two years of expensive therapy has. By the way, here is the invidious link for anybody who prefers that.

It wasn't the theme or discussion of "incel to trans pipepline" that meant anything to me perse, but rather hearing the content creator sharing their life's story and the story of their struggle. And of victory.

I hate that I was born in and that I grew up in such a transphobic and toxic age. I wish I had discovered earlier that a life in which I give zero f*cks about perception - and even less f*cks about expectations regarding gender and gender expression and roles - is possible.

I don't know where I'll go from here. But I feel like I can at least breath, because there may be a way - whether it's transitioning or "simply" adjusting my attitude towards myself - that's not about trying to accept suffering or that "life is hard" or whatever bullshit people have been feeding me, regardless of their intentions.

Thank you for letting me vent. If this post is in anyway inappropriate in regards to the rules of this community and/or instance, feel free to remove it.