Domi

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[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 month ago (2 children)

Finding IRL friends and community is really great and it will help you figure yourself out. I don't know what you have available near you but you might find queer and queer-friendly events nearby. They might have associated groups, meetups, socials etc. If you can find a friend or two to be open with about your journey it'll make the whole thing much more fun. Wishing you all the best.

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 5 points 1 month ago (4 children)

There are a ton of little ways you can explore this feeling while you wait for the next steps. You don't have to tell anyone that you don't feel safe to tell. You've done a really scary thing already, which is to listen to these feelings and let them in.

For me, the little things were stuff like painting my nails, buying and wearing the cute bracelets or rings I always thought were too femme coded for me. Even just imagining how I would feel if my friends saw me as a woman and used "she/her" with me. None of this stuff has to out you to anyone. If you're scared to do them in public you don't have to. You're in control.

When I tried them, these things made me feel good in a way I'd never ever felt before and I've just been following that feeling every since really.

That might lead you towards transitioning, it might not, both things are okay. You have time. Nobody can tell you who you are except you.

Rooting for you babes, good luck.

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 1 month ago (1 children)

I just took it all off fairly recently. I am working toward the more permenant solutions, but just getting rid of the werewolf hair felt amazing. Hell even sitting in the bath shaving my legs to maintain things afterwards feels amazing because that just so femme coded, and compared to the "haven't ever shaved" situation, it just feels like basic maintenance now. The disgust at having body hair changed to the euphoria of "oh hey im doing that woman thing of shaving my legs in the bath like loads of women do".

It's not gonna be the exact smooth and soft feeling i want for a while, but even just the visual improvement when i look down, hell even just my arms, i like wearing tshirts now. I'm glad i did it.

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 18 points 1 month ago

My version of this comic would be switched, I'd be the one saying the negative things, my inner eldritch horror is super-affirming and generally quite irritated with me for being so hard on myself.

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 13 points 1 month ago (3 children)

Actually yeah here's one, my partner a few days after I started coming out to her:

"You know you've always talked about desperately wanting to remove all your body hair, like ever since we were first together (16 years ago)". I was like "Have I? Oh yeah I guess I have".

I'm literally amazed at my inability to have seen this stuff earlier. I keep remembering stuff like this that just has me looking back like "you dumb egg".

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 21 points 1 month ago (1 children)

sooo much stuff that just suddenly is so easy to explain

Someone posted a meme a while ago about the "I dont have gender dysphoria" to "oh that's what gender dysphoria is and I have a whole lot of it" pipeline. A lot of stuff in my life does make much more sense when viewed with that lens.

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 month ago

Thankyou for sharing your wisdoms with me. O Captain! My Captain! 🫡. I really do appreciate your thoughts and perspective.

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 month ago (2 children)

Thank you <3. Being called sister just made me feel very nice inside. I am very lucky in having some amazing friends and a supportive partner, but I have been scared to reach out to irl groups because I've really internalised the idea that those spaces aren't for me. I have some really dear close trans friends that have been hugely supportive but they live in other countries and we see eachother only maybe once per year.

I've recently been at some IRL events where I've introduced myself to new people (isn't it so nice to do that with a new person and they dont have to re-adjust any pre-conceived opinion about you and they just go "Hi Domi, nice to meet you" and it's no big deal? :)).

I am learning that a lot of those imposter fears that have held me back are not reflected when I actually do talk to people in trans spaces IRL. Even though I'm not yet very femme-presenting, everybody so far has made me feel welcome and valid. The same way you have here.

[–] Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 month ago

It's nice here

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