Eldritch Mlems

[Engagement from anyone welcome]

Context, informed consent is a thing here and I will likely be starting HRT in the next month or two. Here is what my thought process has been for the last year since beginning to socially transition, although very slowly.

• I should buy feminine clothes
• I don't want to have to buy new clothes once my measurements (hopefully) change from HRT
• I will wait to buy feminine clothes

• I should practice makeup
• Makeup makes dysphoria worse
• I should start HRT / look into FFS
• I will wait to practice makeup

• I should start HRT
• I haven't earned that; I don't dress or present fem
• Kick can down the road for HRT

The good news is I called a doctor last week to schedule the appointment! So things are progressing. Just wanted to see if any guys, gals, or pals have had a similar experience with their transition, or seen someone else go through that.

Bonus:

I LOVE WEARING A SKIRT

MY LEGS ARE SMOOTH AND SWISHING A SKIRT IS SO GOOD

I FEEL SO FEMININE AND I LOVE IT

AHHHHHH EUPHORIA

She is always with me. If she is not hunting for my cursor, she is sleeping or watching videos with me on my lap, and she always sleeps in every place I use the most, like my side of bed.

https://www.threads.net/@archeo80/post/DFY8iNvyuzR/shinji-ihara-the-devil-with-an-angels-face

I've been in therapy for a few months and I really want to start HRT soon but I don't know if my therapist will write me the required letter. If she doesn't by the end of this month I'm going to start doing DIY, is there anything I should know about the process before I get started, anything I should be aware of? Are there risks or side effects. Things that I should be aware of before going in

P.S. Don't give me any of that crap about detransitioning, you don't know me well enough to say I would, frankly I'll never call myself a boy again, not of my own volition or to capitulate to others.

Edit: Thank you all so much for the information and resources, sorry if I wasn't able to respond to people's comments sooner, things have been hard and I've been busy lately.

I’m watching Common Side Effects, personally I don’t find that good but anyway it makes me think

I’m in Eclipse Phase phase and I was wondering how I could use the premise of the show into the setting of EP

For those that don’t know EP is a d100 roll under, hard sci-fi techno horror rpg. There’s a intelligent nano-virus (exurgent virus) that create psycher like character in one of it’s less malignant form.

I was thinking that a scum (communal partying drug loving faction, live life at her fullest, living in cycler spaceship) DrugDJ found old strain of magic mushroom and try to grow it like a pet project. Ultimately the shroom got infected with a brand of the exurgent nanoviri, maybe the DrugDj got infected and choose to use the mushroom to infect other and it’s back fire.

After that the blank page appears and it’s here that I ask for your help

Loki having a nap after his fist supervised trip outside.

The tower is the lair of a cursed green adult dragon and the dungeon in the Hells is where the party must find an artifact to remove the curse. Of course, they could just kill the dragon too.

^ credit to CzePeku maps on Patreon.