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I don't think mine is, she certainly doesn't bother me. Two things about being AMAB that I actually kinda like are my mustache and my genitals.

Aww dang it, it was only after I posted this that I remembered the alternate meaning of ACAB. I thought it was just funny and relatable at the time since I'm a trans woman who feels that part doesn't invalidate my identity.

I think it might have been partly because I said to her once that I wanted to try and reduce or prevent muscle loss on HRT and maybe she took that as me having second thoughts about getting HRT. Also she didn't specifically say that girlmoding or commitment was required for HRT but that she found my lack of it concerning. I shouldn't beat myself up too much for it though. She was trying to gatekeep me, I didn't mess up by telling her that.

I was thinking that I would take HRT long enough for permanent changes to set in since one thing that I do worry about is muscle loss on HRT. Then I'd stop taking it and the blockers, probably gradually and let my body's natural hormones take over again. I'm not sure how bad muscle loss on HRT is, I've heard some people say it's not that bad but I've heard others say enthusiastically that it'll "melt your muscles away like butter". If it's closer to the second I definitely plan to stop in the future.

Also yeah, I guess what I'm doing would be considered informed consent, not DIY. Im my defense I've heard many people call it DIY and I'm still very much a noob a this whole trans thing (only came out a few months ago and I learn new things everyday 😅).

Fuck you, I'm not waiting longer than I need to. I'm doing DIY if my therapist doesn't write me the letter, I'm not finding another one and wasting more months talking about worthless feelings just so they can maybe write me a letter when I could've started DIY and began the journey already.

I've seen people talk shit and try and argue that detransition rates are higher than they really are. They've used that to justify long wait times for HRT and transitioning. I just didn't want people to give me the speech about how the wait is to make me sure so I don't regret it and detransition. I know that won't happen because I desperately want the changes, my flat chest gives me immense dysphoria.

I have no idea why or if my therapist is gatekeeping me, it could just be that she hasn't written the letter yet, but I for one am not willing to wait more months for her to do so. The sooner I start the better.

I was never able to get a girlfriend, so I decided to become the girlfriend (I still really wish I had a girlfriend ☹️).

Superglue is way worse than wheatpaste, if wheatpaste is hard to remove, superglue is impossible without causing extensive surface damage, especially on plastic surfaces.

Get a superglue bottle with a brush and coat the surface in that before putting the sticker on it. It'll make it a pain to remove and basically impossible without surface damage.

In the bathrooms of any red state or republican-leaning town.

Well at first I never really thought I was, I like all manners of masculine things like shooter games, sports, fixing cars, getting dirty. Things that are largely considered manly. However I did like to hang out with girls more often, like I felt more comfortable around them. I never really questioned that much it felt normal. But I met someone a few months back who was very much like me, we shared a lot of interests and even had a similar style and when I learned she's transfem it made me seriously start questioning. So I decided to have a little experiment and I asked her to call me by she/her pronouns to see how it felt, and I loved it. It felt so right, so true. A bit later I started to realize that I felt incomplete, my flat and empty chest made me feel discomfort and sadness.

That's how I knew without a doubt that I was transfem, and every piece of trans literature I read including Gender Dysphoria Bible just cemented that in further.

Speaking from experience as a trans woman myself, the best advice I can give is follow your heart and do what makes you happy. I'd recommend finding some local trans communities where you live, and also getting a gender affirming therapist to talk to, these things have been helpful to me.

Good suggestion, I'll probably get proper breast pads or inserts though. I've got the money for it.

been refining that for about a year now to reasonable success till i start hrt

What? You've been waiting more than a year for HRT 😔😭?!? I don't want to wait a whole year to do it, especially since it might get harder to do it in the future.