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👐🙇💆 "good girl" 👮👹👮

Be you while you can and don't let anyone stop you. It is a waste of energy to worry about things you cannot change including stupidity in other people. Live without regrets. One day, if the winds of fortune turn unfavorable in life, you will most value the times you were bold, the times you were true to yourself, and the times you were true for others. You only have one worst day to deal with. For all the rest you can brag to yourself "I've seen worse."

When some punk kid threatens me on a bike trail these days I tell them "do you think you can hit harder than a Jeep Cherokee and Mitsubishi Montero, because I took on both of those but I'm still here and they were total losses." My real emotional worst low was 3 flat tires in 40F rain at night with a headwind, when a 1:45 ride took over 3 hours. All the other miserables are not really memorable to me specifically because I only allow myself to hold onto the worst in mind. I've actually been hit twice badly by cars but by 7 cars in total. Now I'm physically disabled and kinda stuck lying down at home most of the time. Live your life like you could become me. You won't regret being real to yourself. You will regret the opposite. It is just one bad day at worst.

Lemmy

Cheshire and Alpacas scene from the lost tales of Alice in Wonderland

She is in a phase of skittishness where she will not look directly at anything or anyone and make eye contact. So this is "that idiot brick is scary af! (big eyes)."

It is dogma mixed with the unfamiliar. It is very similar to how people that do not GAF about me and my physical disability like to say I'm fine and just lazy or it is in my head. That is the most destructive bullshit anyone can say to me, but I have learned to translate it as them saying "I am a worthless homicidal fuck that wants to kill you," and that seems to help keep things in perspective. There are a whole lot of stupid people in the world. Average is a very low bar and half of the world is below it.

"Never argue with stupid people. They bring you down to their level, and beat you with experience."

Best part of that quote is when they agree and take it as a complement.

Makes sense. We are all basically nose blind to our own stink. Change the chem and blind the blinder.

One of the hard realities of my physical disability comes from still cycling. The chronic stress from pain shifted my scent significantly. When I change drop bar tape OMG it is terrible. It was even super corrosive over the first few years. Basically drop bar tape on a bike evaporates a ton of sweat and concentrates the salts and the worst part of your own scent.

For the longest time I thought the scent was only due to diet, but have since learned it is far more complicated, as even with a perfect diet I am still toxic AF. I attribute it to the never ending stress from high levels of constant pain.

So... if it suddenly seems more pleasant, maybe it is not just the HRT. Being in a better place physically and mentally has a substantial impact on scent and health overall. Just be the best you.

unavoidable

NP. Be well, stay safe.