honestly go all out.
RymrgandsDaughter
joined 8 months ago
I think I really start noticing at 10 weeks? it's hare to remember because I didn't write anything down due to paranoia. I wasn't on Prog tho
It's actually really like this, having people tell me that I was brave was so strange. I felt more brave in every step leading to surgery but that? it was Tuesday
Yeah but what if I want to be an endoplasmic reticulum 😮💨
Also I didn't remember that about cells
my gender is corrupted
Fuck Corpos after target goes under who's next?
yeah I hate that feeling, I don't get it as much anymore but whenever it happens it lasts a bit. 🤔 Didn't know that it had a long ass name
I love this
🤔 while it's not exactly the same as symptoms I've had the feeling of something "stuck", missing, inside of, or having to do with your chest being insanely uncomfortable in a weird almost out of body type way you're describing is familiar to me 🤔
eh depends it can feel subtle like I'm doing everything wrong in a there's no way I fit in properly way. Or it can feel like I my skin is too tight, like it's covering my actual body and if I were to rip it all away I'd see myself underneath. Other times it's not recognizing my own reflection or seeing it shaped completely different almost disgusting.
idk there was probably more in the past
I had priorities and did research. I had rules I decided from the beginning. It took months to decide I even changed my mind a on somethings at the last minute
Initials I needed something to match my initials. That only changed slightly when I decided to make sure I didn't have my sperm donors last name.
I needed my name to come from a similar part of the globe historically. I think nowadays I'd have done the same thing for different reasons. When I first made this rule I'd done it to respect my sperm donor despite everything. Then later on I kept it because I had already decided on this and it filtered out thousands of names. If I had to name myself today, this rule would mean that my name comes from the same area as my siblings, which honestly means it doesn't stand out.
I needed the meaning of my name to matter. And I wanted something I'd always agree with. Personally I feel like I fucked up here. At the time I was extremely angry at my father and part of my name reflects that. Nowadays I wish I had picked something that embodied myself and wasn't just an insult towards someone else. I don't hate it but I feel like if I had gotten a second opinion I'd have gone with my other choice for a middle name.
It needed you sound a certain way, I needed saying first into middle to sound good. Not hard when they're from the same region but that's not always the case.
I think with this I only struggled to choose between 4-5 names and was going to put the number 2 or 3 pick as a middle name it worked out well for me. I think if I hadn't gotten pissed off during the time before I legally changed my name I'd definitely have a different middle name though.