RadioactiveShark

I guess. It is also not safe for me to be open as nonbinary offline even if I was.

No, that is not what I am saying. I am using phobia to mean what society means, my fear is that I am bigoted toward trans people. I am not scared of trans people or of me being trans (though I worry that I am transphobic for believing so).

I did know that last part, I myself have a lot of neurodivergent and LGBTQ+ friends.

I cannot really express my gender in real life, but online my friend had seen photos of me (in which I dress very plainly and masculinity) and has heard my voice. I never expressed to them that I ever was uncomfortable with being fully male.

This made me laugh XDDD

Thank you. Press the button, I'm not sure. I have been telling myself to stop thinking about being nonbinary since my friend said it, so it is probably not that I am nonbinary in the first place.

I'm not very scared of being labelled as transphobic, weirdly, I just have this gut feeling that I am, and I am more scared of actually being transphobic than being seen so.

I'm not quite understanding this comment.

Uhh, if I were Rowling, I would probably try to continue my career as author or retire because I have enough money.

Thank you, this is a very kind comment, and it made me smile :)

This logic makes no sense, but I feel like I'm not allowed to be as trans/nonbinary because my nonbinary friend told me I am not. I guess I see them as more of an authority on the matter since they're actually nonbinary? I do not know. This is not something I believe for anyone else, just myself (I would personally never tell someone that they are not nonbinary because that's not something I can tell or decide.)

That's actually a bit comforting, thanks. :)

No one has actually accused me of being transphobic, this is all just my own fear.