MicrondeMMMMMMM

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[–] MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 8 months ago (1 children)

I'm not sure that's entirely true, my hips grew (and are still growing) even though I started at 20.

I heard that it got more complicated after 25 but anecdotaly some trans women have reported some hip bone growth after that.

Fat redistribution does the grunt of the work anyways...

[–] MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 9 months ago (1 children)

I'm not in the US and injection are sadly not predcribed where I live, I am stockpiling my gel though, but I can't get much more than what the pharmacy allows...

[–] MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 9 months ago (3 children)

Welp, that's terrifying. I'm planning to get an orchiectomy as soon as possible but it's expensive (I'm a student) And the waiting lists can be a bit long.

Hopefully my estrogen supply never cuts off ;(

 

Does anyone know how long (if it happens at all) are testicules irreversibly atrophied from HRT? Basically I'm scared that if I stop HRT they'll just go back to working the way they always have and I'm hoping that they won't.

I've been on HRT mono therapy for a year now and my testosterone has been nearly totally suppressed for the whole time, so I wonder if the girls are done for essentially...

[–] MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 11 months ago (1 children)

Thanks for your words, I often feel like looking like a woman is this unattainable goal, and I guess not reaching for it feels comforting if that makes sense?

I don't let passing prevent me from living, I do basically what I want transition wise long hair, women's clothing, perfume, you name it. but I really really really want to pass, because ultimately it would reflect what I really am on the inside. Now I feel torn like my soul is split between what I am and what people think I am.

[–] MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone 15 points 11 months ago (3 children)

I don't know, I feel this sub is more of a happy place, I don't want to ruin it, especially since positive trans spaces are hard to come by

 

I currently need something like that but there is no equivalent I've found on here (Lemmy)

[–] MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone 10 points 11 months ago (1 children)

I agree but if I go to the women's bathroom I'd still immediately get kicked out :(

That won't change for years until I get my maimed face fixed...

[–] MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 11 months ago (1 children)

I haven't gone on 4chan since the first few months of my transition, I just have to be real with myself at some point, I might never be treated like a woman in society because I might never look like one. I just don't know how to cope...

 

I've been 10months on HRT so maybe it's still too early to tell but I genuinely believe I won't pass unless I get FFS, my face was quite masculine before HRT and I think it's not possible to change some stuff without surgical intervention. I have a prominent brow ridge, my jaw is square and my chin is cleft. No matter how hard I try with makeup, voice, eyebrows and hair, I still get sir'd once people see my face. Sorrowfully without much hesitation. It makes me feel terribly illegitimate to call myself a woman when I look like this.

My dysphoria has lowered a lot since starting though and I actually feel alive for once in my life. But maybe it would be better identifying as a femboy until I can get FFS...

Definitely do it helps more than you would think<333

I'm still boymoding partially because of my beard, I hope it will be gone soon !

Yes 🫂

I Hope I wont need laser soon, some men are still less hairy than I am and they want beard... I wish I could give them mine it made some jealous...

 

Like I got another (5th) session of laser on my face and I look like I have really thick beard shadow, I know it's temporary but I have a hard time looking into the mirror... Sadly shaving doesn't do anything because the hair is under the skin. :( It's a tough week but I've had worse <3

 

Sorry this is a bit of a depressing subject but I've been feeling down and I kinda want to interact with ppl online.

Basically I'm feeling down because the girl I liked (I'm not out to her) is very likely into another girl (she's bi).

I never dated in my entire life, mostly because I feel like a freak and don't want to seem like a pervert trying to flirt with a girl. I don't know why I feel like this, but it's really taking a toll on me because if even as a relatively attractive guy I couldn't find anyone, how the hell can I find someone now?

I know T4T exists but there are so few trans women where I live, and the queer community is tiny here. I feel like I'll always be a second option to cis women(genital preference) and it just feels bad. I'm scared I'll end up alone. Moreover the HRT is making me crave intimacy so that adds to the pile...

Anyone feels like this too and found how to deal with it?

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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

[TW] Stretch marksI'm so happy about this OMG OMG OMG!!!! I have such a hard time gaining weight and since it was going down I assumed I needed to eat more, but it looks like I was losing muscle and gaining fat? I don't know any women around me who likes hers but I think they look soo cool! Like a nice pattern on my skin. :)

 

For context I'm not out to anyone and I still boymode (6months HRT)

I was at a party in a bar with friends 1 month ago, we took pictures together and posted them in a discord server, immediately a dude "V" asked if I was a real femboy. So now I have people asking me about it and I didn't reply.

Yesterday I had an eyelid surgery and I sent a picture in the group with my eye patch just for fun and V immediately went "yeah you're 100% a femboy I was certain of it" (in another language) and people AGREED???!!

I don't know what to do, on one hand I want to be a woman not a boy or a man, but on the other, since I probably won't pass until I get FFS I might as well say I am a femboy in the meantime, this way I can pretend to be a man and still wear what I want?

I'm not sure I would get treated better than if I was out as a trans woman. Feminine men get a lot of shit. But femboys seem to be trendy enough to be seen as weirdly cool. Idk...

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How important is prolactin? (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by MicrondeMMMMMMM@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

Hello everyone, I just got my test results back and everything seems to be good, although I'm slightly concerned that my prolactin is too low, it's at 9ng/mL.

I looked up prolactin online and it seems it regulates breast growth and pregnancy, could low prolactin levels slow my breast growth?

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