I recognize my dysphoria as the feelings of numbness/nothingness I have over who I am. Like for most of the time, I feel a distance from my body like it's just kinda there rather then being me. Come to realize that there's words for this specific type of dysphoria Ie depersonalization and dissociation. I mean come to understand I do have the more traditional traits too, not liking my facial hair, body hair, face and body etc in general but most of the time it's just no feeling at all.
That's also why I believe people should focus on gender euphoria, because I think that every trans person does experience some dysphoria it's just can be extremely hard to recognize. The question that cracked my egg after doing research about trans topics was "do you think you would be happier as the opposite gender" and instinctively I knew the answer.
I am not a the type of girl who is into gem/crystals but for some reason I just liked this particular name stuck in my brain when ever I was looking up crystal meanings cus I was really bored one day and wanted to understand what the hype around crystals was (still don't really understand it but at least I got a name out of it).