Gwen

joined 9 months ago
 

I’m interested in that feeling of relief some of us get after taking our estradiol dose. I experience it as intense relief that washes over me and bathes me in joy. My color perception dramatically improves at the same time, it’s a very sudden shift.

I seem to only experience it when my blood levels are too low and the new dose enters the blood. With Divigel it’s after 30 minutes have passed, in my case, but only if me levels are low.

Some questions I have:

  • If I don’t feel the relief, am I overdosed?
  • If I do feel the relief, am I underdosed?
  • Why do I and some feel the relief, while others have never felt it?

I don’t expect anyone to know the definitive answers, but maybe you can share your experience? I’m really interested in learning what this is all about.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 1 week ago (2 children)

Counterpoint: would you sleep with a dude? (If yes then more power to you, hehe)

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 1 week ago

It’s not a thing that you find out you have and then you’re dead in two days, certainly not. But before I started taking hormones, I had suicidal ideation every day. When I got the right hormones in me, the thoughts just weren’t there any more. Just like that. And quite frankly it’s a miracle that I didn’t act on those thoughts. In that sense it is life threatening, very actively. And I don’t know why the thoughts went away or why they were there to begin with, but it’s a common experience.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 1 week ago (3 children)

Gender dysphoria is actually life threatening, though. Kinda hard to explain, but please have some empathy for us, it’s incredibly difficult to be forced to life someone else’s life. Nothing is your own.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 12 points 2 weeks ago

This will directly result in deaths, as it already has in other countries that did the same.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 month ago

That sucks, RLE tests are real life torture. :/

Have you considered Imago? Way cheaper than GGP.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 5 points 2 months ago

Certainly is working as intended, as a means to torture us. But I think it’s also intended to have an appearance of being fair, and that part is breaking down. It’s designed for a time when trans people were not allowed to talk with other trans people. Now it turns out that there are several orders of magnitude more of us than were able to get through the gatekeeping in the old days. No gatekeeping system can scale up to the level needed to give all trans people the care they need.

Informed consent is the only humane way forward and the current breakdown of the system makes this the right time to finally demand change.

Rant: I legit had a psychologist ask me why I came out ”so late”. When I was a teenager our country had about a dozen people being allowed to transition per year. A dozen and she wondered why I wasn’t one of them. That’s when gatekeeping was ”working”. It’s a miracle I’m alive after all these years. There were several rules in place to prohibit someone like me from transititioning back then, but I’m like most trans people I meet these days. It’s highly unlikely that you, the one reading this, would have been allowed through.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 20 points 2 months ago (3 children)

Maybe gatekeeping doesn’t work.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 2 months ago (1 children)

Not sure if anyone else mentioned it, but be sure to stop biotin (can be in supplements, esp. for hair, energy drinks, etc) three days ahead of the blood test. It messes up the E2 blood test results.

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 2 months ago
[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 1 points 2 months ago

I went through the same thing and it was a recurring source of dysphoria for me until I started HRT. Crying rocks!

[–] Gwen@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 2 months ago

Nah. I have spent a lifetime wishing for unrealistic transition options. HRT, SRS an FFT are close enough to magic.

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