Eldritch Mlems

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/28243456

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I recently asked this community how you experience dysporia, however it seemed like no one had the same "symptoms" that i am currently experiencing and Im not really sure what it is.

Currently it happens somewhat regularly that I feel like someone ripped a gigantic hole into my chest. It is this type of hole that cant be filled. It devinetively is caused by my quite big desire to be a woman. So becoming what i dream of is the only way of combating this. "The hole" (I named it the void) fluctuates quite a lot in intensity. sometimes its relatively small and on other days it feels like an flesh made nightmare that you cant escape. There are the feelings of needles punctuating my chest or the feeling of an iron ring, thats wrapped around my chest that i have to fight against with every breath. Whenever the void appears, it is guarded by this huge desire to transform into a woman.

Currently I dont really experience the typical symptoms of dysphoria (hating yourself/your body...). I only sometimes have it, that when i look into a mirror, that I cant really connect to the face staring back at me. This lack of obvious signs of dysphoria is the reason, why i am starting to think, that what I experiience is my bodys way of manifesting dysphoria.

Edit to save you the effort of typing:
I have devinetively come to the conclusion that I Am trans. I have accepted it and i am actively working towarda my transition, slow but steadily. You also dont have to recommend the Gender Dysphoria Bible, since I have already read it. I have also watched the video series about MTF folks by the transition channel. I am just absolutely confused what this is, that I Am experiencing. I will try to find a therapist.

Bonus boop!

I ordered an Italian Sub from a place nearby for Lunch. Flurry decided that it smelled so good he had to have a piece and was fighting me for it. I ended up giving him a little slice as a treat and he sat on my lap and watched WALL-E with me he’s never done this for any other kind of sub. Only Italian.

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/28205934

Loving the 'dip'

the label and the manufacturer of my een say not to expose it to light. what happens if it is? last week i did my injection, but forgot about the warning and was holding it up near my bathroom light while i drew the needle. is it still safe/effective? tonight's my next shot, probably should have asked sooner :P

edit: only realized my mistake after finishing the injection and noticing the label had turned red

edit 2: pic of the label bein red

edit 3: got a pretty quick reply from the manufacturer. label turning red/black is normal actually, from heat/moisture, which makes sense. also according to the manufacturer, the e is slightly pink: normal for mct oil when exposed to light, but as long as it doesn't get worse it should be fine.

Such a sweet kitty. Still pretty hidey, but coming along and opening up. She's play biting me now and it's so cute. Still hisses sometimes when she sees me but still doesn't mean it. Her leg is healing up so good that I never put the cone on her, I think part of the licking was stress which I've removed as much as possible. Picture to follow here.