Eldritch Mlems

So after the battle with parvo losing her siblings, I was going to keep Bonnie. Then my friend who also helps with fostering and rehoming reached out to me because somebody who previously adopted from her asked if she had any kittens for adoption right now… and I thought about it and I have 17 cats all of them had a sibling so when they integrated together they at least had one friend. I don’t know if that makes sense anyways I feel like it’s a good idea for her to live in Switzerland in a loving apartment so yeah she’s going to be enjoying her new life as a Swiss cat she leaves February 15 🥹 it’s bitter sweet.

Hey y'all! Zee's been going through it but he's got some pain meds and is finally hungry this evening! 😭

Such a sleepy derp

Wesley as captured by my digi cam

I just read this article about beauty standards and while I see the excess of it as harmful I can't help but feel hypocritical when I think about laser or hormones or even putting on eye shadow and mascara, not to mention FFS.

Every time I read a piece on self-acceptance and body-positivity I stop and ask myself - why can't I be happy with my body? For me the dysphoria is mostly social but even then - why can't I just accept my AGAB and live with it? How is changing my body to fit opposing gender norms (so I pass etc) different to gender-affirming procedures for one's AGAB?

Both require the same underlying systems - and my face laser wouldn't be attainable without the massive beauty industry making it affordable by virtue of many cis women using the service.

Similar with hormones. If most postmenopausal women didn't get E prescribed, then it would be prohibitaly expensive (I guess this is a weaker point since hormones are beneficial for health reasons not just beauty) but still my use case is mostly aesthetical (to pass) so that feels even less justified.

It feels as if my transition is only possible because it's either subsidised by an industry I see as harmful or via methods not intended for their initial purpose.

Anyone else struggle with any of this?