Eldritch Mlems

TW: Dysphoria

Yesterday, my guy friend sent me a text that I'm still thinking about. I just wanted to vent about it here.

"I went to a recording of a podcast and one of the guests reminded me so much of you. Very similar speaking pattern and mannerisms. It was a comedy show with all autistic people so I guess that adds up."

I should mention that there isn't anything wrong at all with being autistic, but I'm personally not autistic and it gets old after a while constantly being assumed to have a neurodivergent identity I don't. It's also a delicate issue to just assume that about a trans woman due to how often the trans/autism correlation is weaponized. I can be a socially awkward person, especially around strangers, but I've had two therapists and three doctors and I've never been diagnosed with anything other than anxiety, depression, and gender dysphoria.

So far, not too bad, but it gets worse. I politely mentioned to him that I'm not autistic, but it's wild to have seen someone so similar, and then asked about the podcast and who the comedian was. I then click into the video and realize he was talking about a male comedian. I did see, unfortunately, a lot of my pre-transition (or post-transition? I don't want to know) self in this guy, not just in terms of mannerisms and speaking pattern, but also some of the physical traits I was most dysphoric about.

I don't think my friend was genuinely trying to hurt me. It's surreal and cool to see someone new you think looks like someone you know. But he just shouldn't have said anything in this case. I can't shake the question, Is this how my friend sees me? Is this how everyone sees me? We were friends pre-transition, so that's a thing. I've just worked so hard on my appearance and my voice over the past five years, and I thought HRT was working great, but now I'm second-guessing all of it.

I'm not sure what to do. I definitely need some space. I don't know if it's worth it to have a conversation about this, since you can't control how others perceive you. I'm even at the point where I'm considering if I want to remain friends with him.

TL;DR My friend texted me about a podcast featuring someone he thought looked and sounded like me, along with assumptions about trans women and autism. It turned out he was comparing me to a man. I'm feeling dysphoric, questioning all my progress, and unsure if I want to continue being friends with him.

https://chaos.social/@gadse/116077369877172330

I've always GM'd with my laptop, never used a screen, but I like the idea of it more and more.

I was just curious what people put on there? What do you consider essential and what has come in handy for you?

For reference I run Call of Cthulhu so especially interested in that, but I've also done DND so really just curious in general.

After losing her siblings to Parvo; my little survivor is on the way to her forever home today. She’s so sweet and full of life. 🥹

I keep hearing it repeated in sapphic circles that scissoring is a myth; pretty sure it's not 😁

EDIT: I found these instructions helpful:

I literally thought scissoring was not a real thing people did until my girlfriend just climbed on top of me and started doing it. And then I ate my words and it was super super great, would recommend.

Positioning is key. It's not like anything you'll see in porn. The way we do it, person 1 lies down face up with her legs spread (like someone's about to eat you out) and person 2 positions her clit over 1's clit, usually positioned diagonally over 1 (IE with one leg on the outside of 1's leg, one leg between 1's legs). Then 2 moves her hips to rub her clit against 1's and 1 press her hips up into 2. But really any position where you can get your clits touching and neither of you are uncomfortable, you're probably going to have a good time.

Oh also, fun thing about scissoring, if you're a multiple orgasm kind of person (like me) scissoring is suuuper fun because the sensation is more subtle and you can just cum like, forever (idk about y'all but I can at least). Orgasm 1 usually isn't as intense for me but by the time I'm hitting orgasm 4 or 5, ohhhhhhhhmygd it's amazing.

Oh and this position is super fun with my girl's clit piercing, feels real great.

https://old.reddit.com/r/actuallesbians/comments/3pxam9/advice_needed_how_to_scissor_affectively/cwa7mq4/

Back to running again.

Edit. I had to change the title, I don’t know how Ready was changed to Traductor.