KaRunChiy

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Dealing with trauma and finding friend groups in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
Dealing with trauma and finding friend groups in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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Dealing with trauma and finding friend groups (fedia.io)
 

So It's been probably 5 years since I've had anything resembling a friend group, or really anything like a friend; and recently I've been wanting to get out there again but I've stumbled across a couple roadblocks.

I can't do IRL because my town has 1000 people in it and most of them are hardcore conservatives and I don't own a car (fuck american infrastructure)

I am struggling to find an online group because I am extremely uncomfortable around men due to a lot of childhood stuff, and a majority of the public spaces are either mixed Adult / Teen or Adult only with absolutely zero tolerance for NSFW (I'm a hentai artist, unfortunately, I love my hobby too much lol).

I feel like a lot of it are personal hurdles I need to overcome too - like I'm very embarrased at how deep my voice is, I haven't had very many positive social encounters when I'm being myself and not putting up a façade etc.

But I have been working on myself recently and I think I'm getting there, but by trying to be too safe I can't really find the community I need. But I know for a fact that if I venture out too far I'll just end up getting hurt again, and my sensitive ass is pretty sensitive so y'know that's a shit deal.

What I want to know is: how did you find your group, and is it really worth it to put myself out there right now?

Why does it grow back [transfem] in c/transmemes@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[–] KaRunChiy@fedia.io 7 points 8 months ago (1 children)

GIVE RECS PLS I NEED

Spain to enshrine gay marriage and abortion rights into its constitution so 'they cannot be undone in the future' in c/lgbtq_plus@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[–] KaRunChiy@fedia.io 10 points 1 year ago

hell yeah

Got back into drawing recently [OC by KaRunChiy@fedia.io] in c/lgbtq_plus@beehaw.org
[–] KaRunChiy@fedia.io 6 points 1 year ago

Thank you so much! It is a really hard angle to pull off, the only other thing i had major trouble with was proportions

Terrified. in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[–] KaRunChiy@fedia.io 11 points 1 year ago

I often have to mask even the slight "gay" tinge out of my voice where I live because even that would draw scrutiny, I have absolutely no doubts that active conservative mercenaries would have it out for us in this godless state. As horrible as it is already, it will only get worse from here, and many are preparing to at least protect their own lives no matter what.

Terrified. in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[–] KaRunChiy@fedia.io 39 points 1 year ago

Steel your heart friend, it's going to get hard. I'm going to make an active effort to be in politics now to help sway some local folk, but it's going to be hard.