DarkAri

Roses are red, violets are blue, I hope you don't hate me, but I'm trans my dude...

Well just be safe, and there is nothing wrong with it. Sex is amazing but you should try to be with one person to avoid germs.

Hmm, I think you should forget about dating and focus on yourself. The dating market is really bad because 85% of people are not worth dating. The only way to get a good mate is to become the best version of yourself and it will come to you. I don't know how the hormones are affecting you but for me it took the little sexual desire I had and made it nearly non-existent, which is nice for me because I dont feel nearly as lonely as I did with testosterone in my system. I mostly just talk to people for the social interaction at this point.

I also have two lovely kids so maybe some of that is out of my system.

This is why you should just buy it yourself. Public healthcare is great if it works, but there is no sense in putting off your life over 200 a month.

Ironically the only thing killing religion is demonic priests who want to use religion as a platform to hurt innocent people they don't like.

Honestly fuck your parents. Don't let them ruin your life. Probably better to keep it to yourself. Do what you need to do. One day you can cut them off. Don't let them get you down. You will be very happy one day soon.

Some guys are cute but I'm not attracted to most men. I like cute and pretty guys, androgynous guys as well. Most men put almost no effort into their looks and the ones who do often tend to lean into masculinity which isn't for me.

You don't have to be goth all the time. It's actually cool to have different styles. To me goth is not really about clothing it's more about not giving into the conformist society where everyone tries to project purity. You can actually be goth just by doing your own thing. Not letting others tell you how to live and how to dress. Rejecting their judgment. Spitting it back into their face. As a stylistic choice it's very cool. My favorite. I identify a lot with death and demons and dark things. I always have. I don't dress goth all the time though and I do it my own way. I don't want tattoos or anything. I don't lack baggy clothing. Instead I still like to be attractive and stuff. Just wearing my darkness proudly. Being cute but also rejecting the idea that I need to try and appear as if in better than others. I can be attractive for myself and those who actually get me and like me. I see the way people try to be like everyone else and look like them as one of the worst tragedies of humanity. Maybe it's because I have a very artistic soul. I want to express myself. That is often black and spikecore but other times it might be colorful and lively.

Be a lady at night until you can do something else. You can find another job. You have to get out of this depressive self defeatist mindset. The world is fucked up. Its not your fault really that it is the way it is, yet you shouldnt let it also take your happiness. You dont have to be depressed and be a victim. You are going to die anyways, whether it being 5 years from now being desolated by your community or 40 years from now as a deeply depressed person who gave up everything about their self to cling on to a life that they dont even want to live. Why even fear death? Why not live now while you have the opportunity? Life only slips through your fingers like the sands of time. To live 5 years and be happy is better then living 100 years in misery. You are going to die either way. You might as well choose to be happy. To embrace your death fully. To let go of fear. To let go of the darkness. To live. To be alive, truely alive. To be happy. To fall in love with this dark world once again. To let your soul breathe. Dont be afraid.

Sounds to me like you are just a normal human being. I use the label nonbinary although i identify more with the female side. The reason all these terms are so confusing to you is that unlike most people you thought about what you gender actually in more then 5 minutes and are not a liar. Gender as most define it today is mostly a bunch of made up nonsense that men came up with to somehow think of themselves as being superiour to women. Since women traditionally gave birth and raised children, took care of the house, did most of the actual work, men had to come up with all these ridiculous reasons for why they were important or needed. Its mainly boils down to men need to exist to protect familes from, wait for it, other men. So yes, problem, reaction, solution. Men are themselves the solution to problems they themselves create. The zame way men today conspire withceach other to pretend like they are going to nuke the world so they can steal all the valuable property without actually working for it. How else could they claim to be the head of the household and only the ones who could rightfully keep property, and the only ones who could inherit anything, or set the rules, or keep women as captives inside of marriage without coming up with this whole mythology of gender?

You aren't crazy gender is only peoples biological sex in the strict and ancient sense of the word. You could have boobs and wear a dress and makeup and still be a man, it doesnt make you less of a man, in fact it probably makes you nore of a man, not that you have or should identify that way, just that most of what people call gender is stupid made up nonsense. Religion is also full of this nonsense. Just identify how you like, man woman, nonbinary, or fluid, dont argue or try to explain yourself to people who dont care about what you have to say anyways, and only seek to reaffirm their own hate and stupid biases. You are just a perfectly normal person and since gender is mostly made up there is no reason to play into their dumb little paradigm. Just be yourself and identify with what you feel or identify with nothing at all. Whats important is you are happy and living your life in a way that makes you happy.